Do you believe that God is bigger than your questions? That he is not befuddled by your doubts? That his omnipotence is stable and unthreatened by your curiosity? That he is not rolling his eyes and throwing the Bible at you, wondering why you’re just not getting it?  Or do you consider your own question risky or dangerous? Are you more concerned about division and slippery slopes than intimacy with your creator? Are you assuming that questions and trust are mutually exclusive? Or have you considered that sometimes pure trust means big questions, knowing the answers are most certainly out there, and lie at the heart of the One who desires real, raw communion with each one of us?

On Roe v Wade and all the noise right now: Sometimes it's right to speak out on issues we find important. But there's another important way, to weep with those who weep and to try to understand those who are different from us, to be gentle, slow to speak, slow to become angry, quick to admit when we’re wrong or when we’re not as sure of an answer as we might wish we were. 

Letting an old self go and opening your heart to change is not a selfish act, it’s not even a courageous act or a valiant act or a self-righteous one, it might be even simpler than any of that – maybe it’s just opening up to the way things are supposed to be. If you’re exhausted by resisting change, by holding onto a version of your past self because you’re afraid of what you’ll lose, you can surrender to what you might become.

"God is sovereign and..." doesn’t let us sleep well at night, because we recognize all the work we’re still called to do. It doesn’t comfort us that everything is going to be ok, because God clearly states that things may be very much not ok until the day where pain and death is defeated, once and for all.

I share this because I think lament is unnatural for us, especially in moments like this one. It’s taking practice for me, and I think seeing it shared more frequently is a good start. So in the congestion of our social and news feeds, I offer this: a prayer of lament.

This is the essential truth, the beautiful paradox for us doubters: Even as God grows more confounding to us, His presence remains our perfect balm. He is everything we’ve ever hoped for.

I wrote this opinion piece for Religion Unplugged with support from Young Evangelicals for Climate Action. We have heard a lot of sweeping statements claiming that we are in unprecedented and unique times. And, of course, in many ways that is true. Yet this is not the first time we have been called to drastically …

Continue reading Republished: What Climate Change and COVID-19 Have in Common

This post was also shared on mbird.com. “I have to be honest...I hadn’t planned on giving up quite this much for Lent.” Reads one of the thousands or millions of memes COVID-19 has blessed us with. That one is my favorite.  I feel this one rather intimately and self-pityingly. I don’t usually give up anything …

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“What are your fears?”  Swirls of unknowns and anxieties and what-ifs lace all of my conversations right now, except the few essential ones my husband and I have a few times a day. “Are you taking out the trash or am I?” “What should we make for dinner tonight?” “We’re almost out of toilet paper.” …

Continue reading Defenseless in the Time of COVID-19 {And Why I Think We’re All So Scared Right Now}

Easter is for the ones who put all their hope in something even when they’re disappointed. Easter is for the ones who are angry, so angry, but show up to the tomb anyway. Easter is for the ones who cast their gaze away and ask, Really? Did he really? but keep listening. Easter is for me, Easter is for you, Easter is for all of us doubters.

I walk into our house and look at all the things that we love about it. I look at the hardwood floors, the fireplace, the tall ceilings, the cozy backyard. I think about all the dreams I have for this house, all the things I hope it will hold for me and Stu, I think …

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Being young and married taught me that every single one of my dreams is nothing compared to the plans that God has for me. I was audacious enough to think that my plans might be better than His. I wanted freedom and independence and adventure and I wanted it my way, without thinking that God could give me His own kind of freedom and independence and adventure in a different way.